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auxilary25 41, Female, California, USA - 32 entries

Jun 2007
3:35 PM EDT

Sex Dilema :/

I really don't know what's wrong with me...Maybe my depression has hit a new low or my self-esteem issue is back. I love my boyfriend with all my heart and we literally do everything together. But for the past 4 months all the times that we've had sex he's been the one doing everything while I just lay there and enjoy the ride. The problem is I can't do it...I've only been on top like 3 or 4 times so I really don't know how to do is as "professionally" as the girls he's been with. I know how to do it..how to move my hips...I know how to go fast...I really do but I'm terrified that I won't blow his mind away as he does to me. He's 28 and I'm 21 so he has A LOT more experience when it comes to sex than what I do. We are getting married so I don't have to worry that he's going to turn to anyone else and he's told me that he isn't in any rush he's going to spend the rest of his life with me and he knows that at one point or another I'll finally feel comfortable to do it...I WANT TO SO BAD!! But when I go to do it...when I have all his clothes on and I'm on top I freeze...can't move my hips cuz he's just looking @ me and I'm just thinking "what if he doesn't like it..what if it doesn't feel good?"....I just wonder if anyone out there has ever had this problem...

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usrswthrt01 45, Female, Illinois, USA - 25 entries

Jun 2007
1:17 PM CST

Secret Identity

When I'm around you I'm not me
When I'm around my friends I'm not me
When I'm around my family I'm not me
I have a secret identity.

My identity was lost thanks to you.
My identity will never again be true.

I hide behind the face of a mask
The smiling face thats such a hard task

There are parts of me some adore
There are also parts I hide what a chore

What if everyone could see that uglies of me
What if everyone knew the person I can never be!!!!!

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usrswthrt01 45, Female, Illinois, USA - 25 entries

Jun 2007
12:38 PM CST

I Am A Woman...

I am a woman that loves with all her heart

I am a woman that's silly and smart

I�am a woman with many open wounds

I am a woman that's still needs to be tuned

I am a woman that has much fear

I am a woman that still brings cheer

I am a woman that's still lost

I am a woman that know's the cost

I am a woman that's hurting inside

I am a woman that hides behind her foolish pride

I am a woman that can't look you in the eye

I am a woman alone that cries

I am a woman that's imprisoned with chains

I am a woman that holds her pain in vain

I am a woman, a mother,a friend

I am a woman someone you can depend

I am a woman of all this and more

I am a woman who will one day soar

What you see is all that is left to see

Just a woman that you can truly believe

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scarlett 36, Female, Bahamas - 161 entries

Jun 2007
1:55 PM EDT

W00t! so, going out to Senor Frog's tonight! After having dinner at my ex (not Connor)'s house with his new gf....o.O ? Should be interesting......and then Green Parrot. I love living here...The only problem being that...well....not a problem really but still....I lost a lot of weight recently and none of my clothes fit aaand I went out to buy new clothes but, because of where I live, I can only find very, very scandalous outfits.....and now I have to have dinner with Mrs. Clark in a shirt that screams "LOOK AT MY CHEST" .......I suppose it could be worse.

Also, ha HA! I am no longer depressed! The past two weeks have been utter shit. It's good to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. (Although, supposedly I have another month (two weeks for every year we have been dating) before I'm ready to actually move on.) I hope I reach my wide open range soon...

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Bioprana 51, Female, Chile - 12 entries

Jun 2007
8:51 PM PST

Delusion causes evil feelings to arise in your heart and mind. One may be evil-minded, yet with the blessings of elders and in the company of noble souls, one can easily get rid of evil tendencies and develop virtues. People undertake various spiritual practices to attain divinity. Thyaja Durjana Samsargam; Bhaja Sadhu Samagamam; Kuru Punyam Ahorathram; Smara Nityam Anityatham (Shun bad company; seek good company, perform righteous deeds always and discriminate between the permanent and the ephemeral).

-BABA

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vjaychowdhary 44, Male, India - 245 entries

Jun 2007
7:13 AM I

New Delhi: Virender Sehwag may have failed to make the cut for Team India's twin tours in Ireland and England but an English Summer is still on his cards as the explosive Delhi bat is ''in talks with'' several top clubs to play county cricket.
''Yes I am contemplating playing in county cricket,'' Sehwag told reporters.
''I am currently in talks with three-four counties. A final decision, as to which county I will be playing for, will be made by July,'' he said.
It would be Sehwag's second stint in the English county cricket.

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Holly 53, Female, New York, USA - 42 entries

Jun 2007
8:29 PM EDT

The mobile vet is coming to the house this Thursday to put our cat deena to sleep. Please say a prayer to whomever or whatever you believe in. Thanks.

I saw the neurologist today. She was nice but doesn't know what is wrong with me. She is going to run tests a month from now. It's going to be a longggggg month.

Meanwhile George and I had a huge fight. I don't know if we can be friends. What next???

Tags: Stay Happy

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JJizzle80 45, Female, Wisconsin, USA - 2 entries

Jun 2007
5:41 AM EDT

Ha that's a funny question to ask me. What I expect from others I do not bother because no one ever gives me anything I expect from them. Like I expect my mother to respect me and let me raise my own kid but she does just the opposite. Sure she's nice to have around for when I go to school so she can babysit when no one else could. That's about the only thing I need her for. But yesterday I was playing with my kid and I was holding him on top of my head cuz he was playing with my hair and giggling and he decided to take a turn on me and hit his face on the hard part of the couch which is the arm rest. She blew up at me and told me she was calling Social Service because all I do is hurt him. What it's not o.k. to get hurt once in a while everyone does from time to time. She acts like he can't get hurt. I blew back up at her and I was like well at least I don't go and get married and not invite you and she comes back and says well at least I didn't fuck some guy who doesn't give a two shits about you. Then I come back and say well damn I'm moving out and she tried to say I wasn't going to take him with me but I was like you are not his mother you can't tell me where he can go and not go I will take him where ever I want to and you can't stop me. Then I kicked the stroller at her because I was so frustrated and it was the only thing in my way and said I hate you to her I fucking hate you. Then I was like you can not do this to me and I'm not going to let you .... You don't treat Annette this way. Then I pounded on the wall with both hands and stompped upstairs and threw the fan in my room. I'm 26 years old I do know how to raise my kid even though she I don't and I'm sick of her trying to have all the control and I'm sick of her using social service shit against me just because he got hurt accidently. I need a friend to talk to about this because I'm stuck in a situation where I can't really leave because I don't have enough money to move out on my own which was why I was staying at home. I don't even have a car of my own I need that to get around. I don't care if it means forking over all my checks to rent, electric, phone, internet and water I dont know if thats included or what not but if that's what it's going to take then I've got to do it to get away from her. I can't live with her when she treats me like a 14 year old. I've got to stand my ground.

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Bioprana 51, Female, Chile - 12 entries

Jun 2007
12:53 AM PST

Man is in search of God and is enquiring into the nature of divinity. When God is within, where is the need to search for Him? Firstly, man should endeavour to understand his true nature which is Sathyam, Jnanam and Anantham (truth, wisdom and infinitude). God has gifted man with the Vedas and other scriptures to open his eyes to the truth that he is essentially divine. In this world, every man is endowed with truth, righteousness and love. Man is the embodiment of Sath, Chith and Ananda (Being-Awareness-Bliss). These attributes are verily divine.

-BABA

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nonstop 29, Male, China - 11 entries

Jun 2007
6:32 AM EST

Long time no see! Well.. I've been busy, since exam is only one day away from now. Actually, exams pretty nice, you get no homwork, and my Mom will buy me a XBox360 if I get my average over 95. It's not an easy goal, but I guess I'll be able to do it if I try hard. If I did it, I might also be the highest average in the class.

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